I have wasted my Degree! -Insight by my elder monk
While going through my residency day certificates, I looked up and sighed! The goals I had set when I had started walking on this path and the destination I had arrived, there seemed to be ambiguity. It seemed as if God had made some mistake? Can it actually happen? The answer was obvious in my brain and heart “No”. God does what is best for us and we should gracefully accept his decision. Something good must be in store for us, which might not be apparent initially, but in the long run, it’s always for our own betterment. Growing up with this philosophy of gratitude and faith, I slowly kept my certificate file back at its place.
Suddenly, I felt a
tug in my heart and my feet seemed to weigh a lot. My body poise changed from a
happy state to state of remorse. Out came a statement, “I have wasted my
degree!” Out of nowhere, I heard a voice, “What are you saying mummy?” My
trance was broken and these words brought me back into reality. I could see my
elder monk looking at me with a firm expression. “Mom, what makes you think on
these lines? You have a wonderful, fun filled, complete happy life. You attend
to your profession even when you are not well and never take any offs. I have always
seen you in your dress and sneakers in an ever ready mode. Then how comes you have
wasted your degree? A degree is wasted if the person concerned doesn’t work as
required and decides to be a homemaker. In such a scenario, one can think of
degree being wasted. It’s a different story if you are working less as per your
expectation.”
Each and every word
seemed to hit at the right place. A feeling of gratitude and love swept over
and my emotional state changed to a state of excitation and happiness. The void
which my Momsie left was at times filled by my monks. Their depth of
understanding and maturity always left me speechless.
My elder monk
continued, “Mom you have had an amazing, inspiring journey. We have seen you
going to work every single day, many a times late due some unavoidable reasons too,
but you attend to your profession. You have spent your valuable time and energy
in raising us and we have thoroughly enjoyed each and every moment spent
together. You have wisely invested your time and energy in your children and family
too, while tending to your professional duties too. You are an inspiration to
many of us.”
My heart swelled
with mixed emotions and my lids could barely hold back ocean of tears as I
hugged her. That moment felt like a life lived for infinite years. With a naughty
wink, she smiled and remarked, ‘Now, get going to your work on your favorite vehicle,
your cycle, your pride.”
An unseen burden seemed
to have lifted off my chest. I felt energetic and the sprint in my walk was
back. These are the times, when I feel God makes contact with us through a
medium. This time, the medium was my elder monk.
Try to be in a
conscious open state of mind so as to identify all your mediums through which
God is trying to reach you.
Love,
Juju
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